I won't pretend that I intend to stop living.
You look back at what you were playing on your boom box and some of it seems more decent than the rest. I was pretty keen on Sade, despite my cool intentions, on Avenue B and then on 10th Street at Seventh Avenue. That apartment with the skylights and the smell of saltwater, that peculiar place at the center of not-desirable New York City. There was a crackhouse in the garage across the street (before it became a Gourmet Garage). There was a homeless lady who lived in an INDENTATION. There was an old-school gay guy charging too much as a barber downstairs, cowboy boots and dyed blonde hair. There was a lampshade shop that I just cannot explain.
Julius was on the corner, Three Lives across the street, acclaimed authors and porn stars winking at me with abandon as they raced by.
Everyone on deadline.
I'd go up to the roof with Cammie, Lisa, Dirk and tricks. For Sade, tar-beach sunbathing and Pimm's. This was a big song that summer, me running hard downtown to the WTC and riding a steamy subway uptown to Cafe Luxembourg. Somewhere along the way I developed a crush on this guy, Mark, who was enamored of my Bohemian (cough cough) way of life. He would drop by the bar and, as you do, enroll at Columbia.
I still really really love you
love is stronger than pride